More reffing happened. Still loving it. More than I thought. Some really tough decisions were made. I’ve given up coaching and any team opportunities this year. I have a priority. It’s officiating. Doing all the things doesn’t help me learn or grow. I can only be so neutral with one toe in the skater pool and one in the ref tub. So I pulled the bandaid off pretty quick and it’s been harder than I thought.
I think there may be people out there capable of doing both. I’ve found I am not one of them. That’s okay. I really adore what im doing. So much so that I find myself looking forward to games more than I ever did as a skater. And traveling is interesting. Listening to a lot of audio books. Seeing some new places. Meeting people. It’s good.
I wish I could let people in a bit. And discuss why im doing it. But the words come out defensive and sad. So it’s easier to just fade into the background for now.